Carzy days passed by just like that

(The crazy gang fooling around at 064's exhibition--Rainovation)

Hehe... I had been very long never update my blog. Many reasons i can give, but then, still back to the word " lazy"! haha... Anyway, had a joyful time with my gang but a blue time with my mom. Every time she called me, I just couldn't' t stop myself quarrelling with her. How bout now? Settle, with the move i made, move back to Kepong and quit the sldn program. She was worrying that i will hate her for making me to have those decision, i told her, no. I just don't want our relationship getting worse. Hehe... Now, back to a concentrate life again. Phew...

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That day went Jun's house, her mom is so damn funny. She couldn't remember my name, she just gave me a new nickname "xiao qian". Haha!! Instead of telling her my real name, i just accept this nickname as, it wasn't sound bad. Haha!! From that day on, Jun always play around with this name, although I couldn't accept in the beginning.

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I really gona pick up quick in my studies from now on. I had left behind of the whole class and friends around me already. No more lazy as the reason to run away. Face it is what i told myself. GOGOGO!!!

Lazy me

Haha... I'm so damn lazy to up date my blog. Anyway, lots of thing had happened during this week. It's a challenging week for my friendship, family and assignment. I just feel that i'm getting lazy. Oh no!!! Can't lazy anymore!! Dateline is getting closer, argh!! Wake up man~!! Oh no, it's girl. Haha...

I feel like want to cut my hair... What do you guys think about it?? Haha... Maybe next year... My mom rejected my suggestion. Haha!

Feel more relax now as my family here has been settle and friends there as well. What had happened, it will be a once-upon-a-time-story in my life. Nah~ forget 'bout that. Haha...

Aiyaya... I'm getting fat! Keep fit keep fit!!

A whole week is going to start, go go go!! Haha.. Laugh more!

Chain...

"... I hate this part right here..." Pussy cat dolls' song, "I hate this part". Ya, I do hate quarelling, I do hate being fake, I do hate people telling me what to do... But what can I do to avoid all these? THis afternoon had a chat, no, actually a quarel with my parents.

They just so worry that I will get cheated by people, or even friends. They just so worry that I will missed the result of my studies... They were so worry about me. I hate to hear what they repeat and repeat...

My dad said he was worried what I'm doin out there, and bla bla bla... I also forget what he said, and just remember what I shouted at him... I said:"Even if I stay at home, you will always be out there for meetings or activity, how many time I can be with you?! It's the same thing I stay outside, no different!" I know that hurt him much, but I just don't know how to appologize for that... I'm hurt too, that's why I cried...

I know you guys worry about me, I know... I just want to be free with what I want, I just want to make my own decision... That may wrong, but that's is what I need now... I'm 19 this year, not a kid anymore. I have my thought... I know what I'm doing... Why don't just let go the chain and set me free?

I found out that I am such a greedy and selfish girl. What can I do? I just remember the words from a friend, "just be yourslef". But now, I lost myself with the chain on me...

Friendship is such an important thing to me. I just couldn't stand with people that had betrayed my trust on her. I just couldn't be an good actress for all that. I am running from that, I am trying to hide away... I just couldn't believe all this had happened... Double faces... Hate that so much... Sometimes really feel that I should be alone, I should boycott myself from the crowd. Will this effective? Maybe I don't think so, that's why I have a new gang now. I want to start over again. I can't measure how people will like me or hate me, I just can be myself, at least I know someone did like me...

Lots of crazy stuff...

1st August

Oh yeah, a whole new month for me. Lots of stuff gona be settle. Lots of thing had happened. The biggest changes is on my friendship. Sometimes, i just feel that, some people really terrifying me. They have double faces. Anyway, have a distance with those people is what i can do to protect myself from getting hurt again...

I went back to my secondary school to attend a mini concert of our school symphonic band. This is actually not a concert, just a mini performance to the parents of band members. Although the performance is not what i expected, it's a great job from the juniors. Good job and keep it up!!

Haha... Don't misunderstood, that's my dear Eric's hand and mine. Eric is my "younger brother". Didn't aspect he will be there too. We've been few months didn't meet each other, miss him so much. Yes, that surprise me. Hehe... It had been a culture that they will always sell "glow-in-dark" in a performance, and for sure i will buy it. Haha!!

This is Jiak Ying, my ex's younger sister. She's getting prettier. Haha! She's 16 this year, but look at her height. Wow!! Sure will reach 170cm+, just like her brother... (miss him...)

Tadaa~ Eric desu. So tall already, big boy already... Haha!!

2nd August

Haha... This look damn weird, our parents "force" us to re-take the photo. Haha... Actually it's a family gathering for my cousin brother who came back from USA. Handsome but chubby. Haha!! Here are all my cousins on my dad's side. Just left out 3 of them, one at Kampar, one at Singapore and the other one at UK.

This is an old photo found in my aunt's house. Guess which is me. Haha!! Love this photo, all still so young and cute. Haha!!

Oh ya, this gathering also a birthday celebration for august babies. My 2 cousin brothers and my younger brother. 3 of them are sitting infront of the cake.

This is Niki, my cousin sister. We are like friends, so close. Haha!! She's getting prettier and slimmer. While me myself getting fatter.... Sob Sob... I want on diet!! haha!!

Xixi...

3rd August

Haha.. We went to celebrate Elyne's belated birthday at Sungai Wang. Those who attend were, Elyne, Teow, Jun, Iko, Arron and Vincent. We were damn enjoy, no matter is singing, eating or even taking pictures! I call this gang "sot sot gang". Haha... Crazy enough.

Pretty Jun and i at green box.

The sweet couples with me in. Elyne in the middle and Teow on the left.

We took picture in the washroom. Haha!! Easy what, have big big mirrors to help adjusting the angle. Iko in the middle and Jun on the right.

This two are addicted with basketball machine. Haha... Look at their points, cool... I will never reach that point unless i practise everyday. Haha.. They are a nice pair in playing this. Haha!! Below are the points we get accidentally. Just look in it, Iko get 87, I get 86, Jun get 246 and Aaron get 247. Haha... What a co-incident.

4th August

Aaron and I are suppose to accompany Jun to go for casting at Blinc modle. In the end, both of us also being "force" to join in too. Haha... Actually myself also intend to, but just no confidence with this stuff. Haha... I'm fat in those pic!!! Argh!!! I'm on diet now!! I want keep fit!! I want renew my profile!!! Haha!!

After casting, we actually went to 1U to have our lunch+play games. Haha... Non-stop playing games these days.

Then, went playing badminton with them and an additional member--Vincent. I've been so long didn't play badminton, that's why i'm getting fat. Haha... We had plan for the following weeks. Next week will be basketball, then baseball..... Every week once. Good!!! I like sports!! After the exercise, we went to "chat room" to have our dinner. Tired... Then i went overnight at Jun's house. Oo.... Sleep in an air-cond room... So comfort... Haha!!!

5th August

Today have nothing special. Just suffer of muscle pain of my back... Too long didn't exercise and that's what i get from it. Haha!!

OMG!! I hate today's lesson!!! Damn boring and doing things that is damn boring.... Argh!! Hate the lecturer, always say lame thing, and laught by himself. Somethign wrong with his brain. Ishhh!!

After that, went station 1 to do assignment with Iko and Jun. Something very funny and sorry happened. I accidentally spilled half glass of Iko's Jasmine tea on the laptop!! I was embarresed and doesn't know what to say, just laugh... Luckily the keyboard is waterproof, if not... I will be dead ducks... Haha!!

6th August

We start with the re-design project for R2 cafe. Our very first step is to re-paint the wall of the staircase as it is too dull with white. We had decide to use chilli red, also a link with the R2 logo. We start our work at around 4pm and end up at around 9pm. Tired...

Jun and Iko... Going to start painting...

OMG! Teow! What a dangerous pose!

Vincent... Better becareful...

Our group members with Jun as the photograher. Yeah... Almost done...

After painting, we went to have dinner at McD and also to do our assignment. Not a enjoy dinner for me, because my dad called me and had scolded me with some unacceptable reason... Damn unhappy although i know he just want to make sure i'm safe out there... Aikz...

7th August

I've bought the bag of a senior's project. It's very cute and looks like a pillow actually. Haha... Then, went to silk screen room to meet my dearest gang. They just fool around with my new bag and the "cross badge". Vincent is pretending to be a cute nurse, there's actually a story why he act like this. Haha.. Lazy to tell here. Haha...

We found sothing very cool on the room and trying to play around with it. Haha!!

The couple, wonder why Teow holding that to take picture with Elyne. Haha!! Sot de...

Then we went to had lunch at Sri Rampai's old town, with Hwi Yee joining us. A lot of jokes during the lunch and yet we were late to be back to our next class.

Night, went to Jun's house again. Hehe... Had dinner at her house with her family, Iko and Iko's sister. Then start to do assignment--book design. Jun and Iko fell asleep on the sofa, left me continue doing.

Mom called me... We had chat around with lot's of stuff, a lot... I jsut feel so guilty that i made her so worry about me... Ya, I will make changes... Sorry mom... I will be a good girl, just that it is so suffer if i just stay at home. Aiks.... Don't know what to say anymore... Just behave myself...

8th August

I up-dated all these today. Just created a new account at twitter, just be free to visit my page: www.twitter.com/mikacia

hu.... finally... finished... I appriciate people i have now. You will sence it, who is my best friend and who are out now... I just want to be honest to myself... Hard to hide all the feelings... I'm not a good actress. I had having mask!