Troublesome Matter

Either "like" or "love", it's really a troublesome matter.
No matter i'm in love or not, it will really affect my daily life.
Always thinking about the person, always waiting him to nudge me in my MSN.
Always hoping something special will happen.
NO!! Dreaming!!
Troublesome... Really troublesome...
I rather i'm not in the situation all the time.
So that i can enjoy my single live freely.
Not thinking of anyone, mind's freedom!!!
I hate all the like and love!!
I can be greedy, I can be selfish.
That's me, freedom always number one for me.
A lot of questions in my mind.
I want to leave my own life.
No mask on me, no acting... I hate all this...
Why can't just be like kids?
Angry and sad for 5 minutes and happy for the whole day??
Sometime I think, why is my ambition being a Graphic Designer, not a kid?
Crazy thinking I have. But i like all this...
Who can answer my question?
Someone did answer me all this patiently.
Some of it wasn't my answer. Never mind.
I know, words should go through big brains before coming out from my mouth.
I know... but why i should do this?
So that people around me won't get hurt or to protect myself of being boycott?
I'm kind off confuse with this.
Mess... Mess...
Loving someone is a sweet thing, maybe...
But in love with someone who doesn't love you... Like hell...
Really like hell.
That's why say, single life is the best.
Can play freely! Mind freedom!!! Haha!!!

My day~

I went GK to meet my client at bout 1pm, i used to call him "BOSS". Haha!! I was so nervous... While waiting for June and Iko, i really don't know what should i do, i just walking around, pretending i'm thinking what to do with the interior design. Hehe... ><>

Then, we decided to go for movie at 8.30pm... But... you know girls... slow... and... late... we reached there at 8.25pm, if i'm not mistaken. No choice, i'm so desperate to watch it, chose the later show at 10.40pm. I called my mom to inform, and... i get scolded... She even want me to go back immediately and throw away the ticket... Of course, i didn't do so. Bad girl...

We then went to TIMES bookstore. I just grab a wedding magazine, thought just a glance, but actually i finished the whole magazine... I really like those gowns!!! While i was reading it, i found the reason why i want to keep fit and slim. Haha!! so excited about that! Haha!! When i can pick up those beautiful gown? One day... in the future... >___<>

After enjoying myself with the wedding gowns... Dinner time~ just had a bowl of soup. KEEP FIT~!!! Haha... Of course, then, we watched my very 1st time 3D movie, G-FORCE!!! Haha... During the movie, a lot of sound effect from me. "Wu~Wa~..." Haha!! June was shocked when i told her that was my 1st time. Haha... actually when i was... very very young, even i forget when was it... I had once at Genting's theme park... Anyway... They are so CUTE!!! Haha...

Who knows my feeling?

These days like doing nothing.

The whole day only facebook-ing and day dreaming... hahaha!!

Kind off waste..

Start from tomorrow, i will make all these back to normal.

Concentrate on my assignments..

I am far too slow compare with others. This is really not good... >___<

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-About what i felt on myself-

Hrm... Counting... i had been single for nearly 1 n a half year.

Actually, i'm quite enjoy with this life.

No sms-ing too much, less phone calls, no worries, more concentration...

Sometimes will bored of it, i mean being single, the loneliness is killing me.

Like a voice in my heart wanting me myself to get one asap.

I confess that i have feel on someone, but just feel, maybe not the Mr. Right yet.

Myself couldn't make sure this is a right feeling or not.

I just know the person not more than 1 week.

Maybe just a pass over feeling.

I will overcome this. This is normal for a single lady. Haha!!

I'm talking crap here. Haha! Just want to find somewhere to express this.

Friends happy, I'll happy.

That's my life, leaving without friend? Just kill me!

I swear i won't disturb other's relationship, i swear i won't.

I will bless them to go forever, it will be the fate.

What am i fearing of? I fear that i will be single till the end of my life.

I don't want to be!!! Haha... Crazy thoughts right? That's me... Haha!!

I go to calm down... Hehe...

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(a pic we took during our form 5 prom night 07)

To my dear friend, vian...

Although this few years, we seldom meet up and keep in touch, but for what is true, you are always my idol, my best friend forever, more than anyone else.

At UK got to take really good care, i will wait you back to have korean food together. Haha!!

You really got to take care of yourself.

Remember, don't stress yourself to much... Miss ya... ^___^

哈密瓜~Honeydew~

Just finish taking bath after came back from R2 cafe with the 笑team.

A simple little thing can cause us laugh like crazy more than an hour.

Haha!! That's why, we are "siao" team as well. Haha...

At first was bout kotex, then mixed kotex with the smell of honeydew, then stories go on...

Laugh till tears burst out, stomachache, couldn't finish my DoubleCheese Burger in peace. Haha!!

Anyway, feel so happy with these people, i mean, ya, my friends forever...

Had some happy time, a little of arguement, a little of craziness, that's enough for my college life.

Slowly pick up with the assignments already, if not i'm going be dead ducks again.

I know what result i want, I know this is not enough, I'm now taking action to make those target happening. Yeah~ Sot already...

Oh ya, 笑team at Genting on Tuesday and back on Wednesday to attend class. "Great achievement", haha... During this Final Assign rushing peak time. Haha!! Great trip, my first time with friends to Genting... Hehe... So happy~

Recent life

(Siao Siao Gang went Emptiness at Anexe Gallery on 29th August)

Feel some kind of lonely, but nevermind, it's not the time now.

Something more important is waiting to be done. Ya, My assignment!!! Argh! +____+

What's real for now is, i feel more free with this gang of people.

No gossip, just enjoy being theirself, enjoy the moment.

I hate gossip. Making trouble out of that.

Stay far away from that is the step i took to avoid troubles.

I like elise blog that post:-

感激诉责你的人；因为他助长了你的定慧~

感激绊倒你的人；因为他增强了你的能力~

感激遗弃你的人；因为他教导了你应自力~

感激鞭打你的人；因为他消除了你的业障~

感激欺骗你的人；因为他增进了你的见识~

感激伤害你的人；因为他磨练了你的心志~

感激所有使你坚定成就的人~

Thanks to my friends...

I do learn things from you guys.

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Hehe... start with my keep fit plan form now on.

Anti-rice and mee~!!

Join vege and fruits~!

Haha!!

Jogging every morning~!!!

Hate let people say i fat already. +____+

Wish to learn yoga or dance. Who willing to go with me?? Hehe