小学の回忆

我无意中，发现了这样一个东西……

小学簿子的背面，我记得是有校歌、国歌之类的，但就没发现，还有这么一篇东西……

“学生必须遵守的十大条规”

哈哈！有够神奇的！没记错的话，那是我小学2年级时的小簿子。有够怀念的。

说起小学呀，我是蛮受瞩目的。不是因为我长得漂亮，更不是因为我的成绩标清。其实我是我姑姑的侄女……我姑姑是出了名的马来文教师……也因为这样，我可以混进办公室，和老师的孩子玩耍，做功课。童年啊~开心是有，可怕的还是有的。

我以前啊，就是不爱做功课（哪一个孩子会喜欢的），然后啊，就被挂上了“懒惰虫”的牌子。下课，们都不敢出……但后来，还是偷偷的把牌子拿下，跑了出去。哈哈！顽皮的我呀！想起就好笑。哈哈！

除此之外，我还记得，是很记得！那是4年级的时候，可以选课外活动，我便选了篮球，就是不要去什么常识组的。我最讨厌看报纸了！没让妈妈知道，我怕挨骂嘛……哪里知道，姑姑报水去了！真的非常记得，那晚是家人聚在一起的日子，很热闹，姑姑们和叔叔都在。姑姑就是那时候说了，妈妈当场把我抓去饭厅，狠狠的打了我一顿，逼我去常识组……啊~！！小孩也要面子的啊！！我真的是记到现在。咳……

算吧……小学的时光，真的很天真，很快乐。

我觉得啊，我遇到了健辉，也让我觉得回到了那天真的时候。在他面前， 不用伪装，不用担心，尽情的玩……真的很开心。谢谢你……让我找回我的童真。^^

"Adrian Bear"

Oh yeah~ 2010 is coming~ 1st of Jan, a big day for my dear "bro" is coming~!! As usual, i will prepare a birthday present for him.

Tadaa~ This is the idea for this year!

Though i do think that maybe he wouldn't like this kind of cute thing, but for handmade stuff, this is my style.. Can't change... ><

Proudly present to you guys~ "Adrian Bear"~!! Haha...

This was what i had done last night... The material i used is, normal thread and canvas. Actually the canvas was not in my plan, not the material i want, but couldn't find at the moment, so just use what i have. So, the texture will be a bit hard and tough.

Almost done, just haven't tuck in the cotton. This is the back of the bear with his name and date of birth. Purposely put the "10", as this is done for year 2010. Haha! See the little bunny tail? Cute leh~ Haha!!

Aha! Finally done! But... A bit cacat lo... Especially the left leg...

Yeah~ A photo with my dear Misa~

"Adrian Bear" and Misa.

Haha!! Both also so cute~

Hope he will like it. ><

The 1st idea of this bear is as a hand phone hanger, but i think he also won't hang at his phone, so just changed it to a "whatever" decorative item. Haha!!

运动篇

哎呀！！今天忘了拍些照片！！笨蛋！！啊~

没关系，还有下次的！嘻嘻~到时拍个够！哈哈！！

今天啊，和健辉去打羽毛球，还有我小弟、表哥、表弟。换了运动服的他，真的不一样，很有架势呢！哈哈！我喜欢~ >< 我很久都没打球了，这次，除了要运动之外，还是要见到他啦~哈哈！！我说真的，他认真的样子真的很帅。刚好教练有在，就说安排他们俩人打一场。哎呀~真的他好帅啊~！！哈哈！！结果，教练还是赢了，21比12。已经很不错了。哈哈！教练之后还托我问他有兴趣当助教没。但因为些问题，拒绝了。

看他能和我小弟聊，我也开心，好的开始。哈哈！之后，带他回家了。一开始还说，好在没人在家。哪知，才让他看一看我的房间，婆婆和婶婶回来了！！( ⊙ o ⊙ ) 啊！吓了一跳！还好没什么啦，就假假没事的去洗澡。我让他在客厅等我。好在有报纸陪他，不然我也不知道他要干什么。

之后，想说，老爸老妈会迟回，那就是说没庆祝老爸的生日了。想~哈哈！就和他去吃晚餐吧~当我告诉婆婆我要和“朋友”去吃晚餐时，还以为他会有什么反应。还好没什么，还笑笑的说“随便你”。哈哈！

我又告诉表妹，他是我的男朋友。但她说早已猜到，在进门的那一刻，小弟说是我朋友，就知道了。神啊~还是我笨？哈哈！问她怎么知道，她说中了，说很少看我带男生朋友回家。哈哈！我想想，也是啦，平时都是带女生回家而已……

之后呀，当然是去了他家先，到我等他洗澡了。等的时候，能干什么？玩FB的小游戏咯……哈哈！！

晚餐，去吃酿豆腐。不错吃……哎呀！笨！又没拍照…… =.=''' 算吧，下次下次……哈哈！还蛮便宜的，两个人才RM9。再去之前，我就想说，要不要吃了晚餐后，去Jusco走走。怎知，他提起了我那打消了的念头！真是懂我心啊！！还觉得挺神奇的~哈哈！！逛街的时候，他说要买生日礼物给我小弟。我当然ok啊~就买了个可爱的东西~迟点拍些照片post上来，现在还是秘密。哈哈！！

开心的一天啊~但也花了他不少钱啦……真的很不好意思说……我看还是等迟些才去找他了，但……不知道啦！>< 就这样，甜蜜的回家了~嘻嘻~

情牵手工咖啡

12月26日，从芙蓉回来kl。到了手工咖啡的店。

久仰大名！现在终于去到了，和健辉还有那对小冤家。哈哈！！

爱人+ 好朋友+ 漂亮的环境 = 赞啊！！

虽然说我不会欣赏咖啡，但这里的环境真的是一级棒！

很舒服，服务员也格外的亲切~

咖啡香熏染了我，让我觉得更甜蜜……哈哈！！

哈哈~被我拍到了~帅吧~！健辉酷酷的样子。

这是我最爱的Lemon Cheesecake~！好好吃哦~

相信放了很够的材料，味道才如此的棒！

嘻嘻~想念那里的蛋糕了啦~

Mango Cheesecake，健辉说是用印度的芒果做的，特别的甜。不错不错~ ^^

Yam Cheesecake，也不错吃。外表就已经够吸引了！健辉最爱这个了！

Tadaa~ 蛋糕们大集合！嘻嘻……

古假假说要等阳光出来拍照，就是不让我们碰那蛋糕。

大家都流着口水等啊等的。

其实她是要我们呆久点了~亲爱的古，我明白的，不舍嘛~哈哈！！

但这时的阳光真的还不错的。

之后呀，就下大雨了……哈哈！！上车时，还变落汤鸡了……

Uncle 建力和亲爱的古。

我说他们呀，就是爱斗嘴，一对恩爱的小冤家。哈哈！！

我希望啊，我们能这样下去。很开心，缘分就是这样，把我们牵在一起了。没人能相信，我们相识的时间只是短短的2个月，但我们的感情就像是认识了好几年。是真的……缘分啊~所以我说，这段日子，是我有史以来最开心的！

健辉、古、uncle建力……我爱你们！！！哈哈！！

圣诞前夕の感动

这是他送我的圣诞礼物，巧克力饼干和一只小熊~

我把小熊挂在我的车了

我们开始交往的第一个约会，也是很特别的一天，圣诞节前夕。我真的很喜欢他的笑容，能平复我的不安。哈哈！漂亮的眼睛啊~哈哈！他呀，最爱套我话。我的一举一动，他都能洞悉。

咱们逛完街、吃了晚餐后，去了他家。我送了一份我亲手做的圣诞礼物--笔记本。在书的最后那一页，我写上了一些东西。我坦白说，他可以算是我的白马王子了……他达到了我年幼时和朋友聊起的--男朋友的标准，是所有条件哦！

最主要的三不：不滥赌、不滥喝、不吸烟。还有一些，相信很多女生都会列的标准：大过我、高过我、运动型的、成绩过意得去（重要的是有志向）、乐观的、幽默的……总而言之，就是hit中了！你说我能不开心吗？

在那最后一段，我写上了这么一句话：“别人问我，这次会是多久呢？我会毫无犹豫的答他们，我希望是永久的……”这绝对是我的真心话。分手真的很累。我向往永久的，他也是，就因为这样，令我更开心、更放心……

他有说过，他相信有问题，必有他的解决方案。我相信他的这一句，更被这一句给打动了……有人说，我是谈恋爱的初学者，我承认了……虽说之前有过8段，包括认真的、不认真的，这次是第九次。我最开心、最甜蜜的一次……虽说才开始不久，但，我的心里对话是：“我不希望有下一段了……这是最后一次了……”

FUN特希-第七届雪隆年少情全国生活营

我的好表妹和我，在等候火车开动的空挡时拍了张照。那时的心情是期待又紧张……期待看到去年的朋友们，紧张待会儿的组员会是怎样的呢？？哈哈~总而言之啊，就是有坐立不安的现象啦。这次的生活营让我留下了不少的回忆，还让我在那里遇到了我一直想遇到的人，就是和我同一天生日的朋友！我告诉你们啊，真的很神奇的！刚集合时，我就和她很谈得来，出入都会找她，第一个认识的也是她，更神奇的是，还是和我邻床的！我是到了第三个晚上才得知的。刚知道是还真的不相信呢！哈哈！这就是所谓的缘分啦~开心~

这是我上了巴士，有人说想要我照片，就拍了，发觉还不错~哈哈！我也好久没自拍了啦……

这就是我的组员们啦~没例外的，我今年也当上了副组长。我们的组名可特别呢！叫“周星星”！哈哈！住院们都蛮热情的。虽然说一开始真的有点冷，我到了最后一个晚上才记起了他们的名……有些比较静的，我还是不能记住他们的名，真是抱歉啊……但，开心就好啦……顺便也告诉你们，我们的口号吧：“我说周星你说星！周星~！星！周星~！星！斯蒂芬超，行！行！行！哈哈哈哈哈~楸！”嘻嘻……可爱吧。

这次的生活营，最开心的还是带了家人一起去分享。有我老表妹，我两个老弟和可爱的堂妹。我和凯翔（大弟弟）已是第二期报道雪隆年少情了，海燊（二弟）就第一次，一开始还不太愿意来的，是愿赌服输才跟着我们来的。但到最后，看他的组得了第一名，那开心的样子，我也开心，至少他有享受过这生活营的魅力。明年啊，我想是带齐了全家报道，包括我另外两个表妹，表哥，表弟和我可爱的小弟。哪里可以失掉这分享的机会呢？！甚至我不爱参加这型活动的大弟弟也大力推荐这个生活营呢！哈哈！开心啊~

Photo杰帮我拍的，还特地弄些高些的动作要我笑得灿烂点。哈哈！谢啦~

嘻嘻……这是我们的星星排行榜，我的组榜上有名哦~最然不是说第一名啊，什么的，榜上有名已经很开心了~你知道吗？能在20组里脱颖而出是多么的开心啊！哈哈！还有啊，我觉得这次分配的组员还蛮不错的，都是生日皆差不多的，可能以为这样，让我们玩游戏时特别的有默契……哈哈！也方便我们庆祝生日吧~哈哈！有心思啊~

朋友们~明年我们一起去吧，这生活营的年龄是介于15至25岁的。

所以说，我还能再去6年呢！！哈哈！！

Goodbye to my Dear Greyie

-R.I.P to my dear Greyie-

My dear Greyie left me too on 17th Dec 2009... Never ever thought that she will leave me in such a short time.. Sob sob... I really miss her so much.. She was such a good girl.. Whenever i call her, she will just stop there and listen or even come to me, just like a puppy...

Wish that she will have a better life in the future.. No more sick and will live forever...

-为我可爱的小灰悼念-

我亲爱的小灰在2009年12月17日的早上离开了我……我从没想过她会在这么短的时间内离开了我。伤心啊~ 我真的很想念她，想想，她是多么的乖巧啊……每当我叫她时，她都会停下来听一听，甚至跑向我，就像小狗一样……

但愿她能再投胎后过得更好，不被病魔纠缠，长命百岁……

Pray for Blackie and Whitie...

20/11/2009, 9.50pm... My dear Whitie left me too... With big wound seen clearly after went to the veterinary, i think worse... Brother and I buried it outside my house... Whitie left us with a "qiu" voice... Very weak one... And go with tears... I've pray for Whitie... Hope it will have a better life...

The last memory of Whitie...

Took this picture this afternoon aftern clearing it's wound with my bro... Thought it will be better... But... It start to lose its appetite...

Lost two dearest in a day... How hurt it is... I will miss them so much... Thank you to Blackie and Whitie for leaving such happy memories... Thank you for being my pet...

*For your information, the murderer is a wild cat. Blackie was killed and Whitie was injured last night about 2am... The cat drag Blackie out of the cage in a forcing way, and left a few fur of Blackie... Thought Whitie will be fine... It go worse after been to the Clinic... So sad... My brother don't even dare to see Whitie's last face... He scare he will cry... And i really cried... Pray for them... Appriciate Greyie...

My 3 cuties！

Hey!! I'm so so so HAPPY!! We have new members join my house, no, my family~ 3 cute little rabbits~!!! haha!! My mom took them back from Ipoh after a weeding dinner. They were from my uncle's farm~ What a surprise in the middle of the night! Haha... And another surprise thing is, my dad is the one who say want to bring them back!! Wohoo~ The very first time he himself say want to allow us to have pet! Haha!! I just want to share and proudly introduce the 3 little ones to you guys!

*Whitie 小白

和熊猫极为相似，哈哈！！我妈最喜欢它了。还有啊，也顺便让你们知道，它们的名字都是我亲爱的老妈取的。哈哈！没办法咯，就随她愿，虽说我也想了它们的名字。没关系啦！哈哈！

Looks like a panda. Haha!! My mom love it very much. And also for your information, their name is named by my dearest mom. Haha!! Just follow... Although I had thought some name for them.. Never mind.. Haha!

*Blackie 小黑

它是我最爱的！我觉得它和狗有点相似啦，我指的是动作还有他它的耳朵。它会像狗那样坐着列！真的！可爱极了~

The one i like the most! It looks like a dog, i mean some of its move and also its ear. It will also sit like a dog, it's real!! So cute~

*Greyie 小灰

对，对~最胆小的那个。哈哈！当你碰到它时，他绝不敢动。哈哈！古最喜欢它了，哈哈！好欺负嘛~哈哈！坏古……

Yup, yup~ The most coward one.. Haha!! Don't even dare to move once you touch it.. Haha!! Koo like it most.. Haha!! Because easier to bully.. Haha!! Bad Koo... ><

若你碰到他……

Tanya 蔡健雅的新歌，“若你碰到他”。听了这首歌，觉得深感其受。虽然说，我也不清楚他现在有没有另一半，可，我是真的会永远的祝福他和他的另一半。我时常问朋友的：“你最近有和他来往吗？他怎样了？”甚至朋友也不太清楚他的近况了，没办法咯。发封简讯给他，又不回，有时还挺生气的。也没办法啦，谁叫，他是被我伤害的人。看我部落格的朋友们，有谁认识他吗？若你认识，若你碰到他，代我向他问候问候。告诉他，要幸福哦。他的名是，陈志斌（我也不太清楚他的“斌”是否这样），就读Taylor College,Subang （如果我没记错的话），建筑设计系的。我知道的，真的应该只有那么多。帮帮忙吧~嘻嘻……

Tanya, a singer from Taiwan. I just feel at the same situation as her new song named "If you ever meet him".Though I'm not sure whether he has partner or not,but, I will pray for them forever. I'll always ask my friends,"Are you still keep in touch with him?How is he?"I can say even my friends do not clear with his latest news. I have no idea about this. Every time I sent him a message, he will never reply. Although I will be angry but, never mind, I'm the one who hurt him. Hey guys, do you know him? If you are, please do help me to sent my regards. And also pass him a message, wishing him to happy all the time. His name is, Tan Jiak Ping, studying in Taylor College,Subang ( if I'm not mistaken), major in architecture. That the bit that I know about him. Just give me a hand... Hehe...

* Sorry to those who doesn't know how to read chinese

I don't know how to translate this lyric.. >_<

[我的脆弱坚强 互相作战

理性与感性 失去平衡感

不想让自己 活在过去的遗憾

问宇宙 他是否还爱我吗

这问题 早就有答案

若你碰到了 替我问候他

告诉他 我过得很美满

已忘记他 已把泪水全部擦乾

若你碰到了 替我问候他

祝福他和他的另一半

不在乎他 不再爱也不再等待

就这样吧 若你碰到他

爱 没有绝对 虽曾经以为

我终於体会 爱不能倒退

该让它颓废 收起心碎

若你碰到了 替我问候他

告诉他 我过得很美满

已忘记他 已把泪水全部擦乾

若你碰到了 替我问候他

祝福他和他的另一半

不在乎他 不再爱也不再等待

就这样吧 若你碰到他

就这样吧 若你碰到他]

哈拉哈拉~

好久好久都没写部落格了……

最近啊，我想，我知道自己到底喜欢些什么了。

慢慢的摸清了自己的底。

之前是迷失了自我，摸索摸索……

当中也了解到人是那么的奇怪。

不说那么多了

只能说自己有点孤僻。

我还是比较喜欢和一或两个朋友出去。

不是逛街，不是看戏，

只是纯粹的做各自的功课，喝杯咖啡，聊聊天……

还是做乖乖女比较好……

早睡，早起。每天必看报纸，比吃早餐……

好健康的生活哦，就好像回到了从前。

好宁静的生活哦……享受享受……

可说我与世隔绝，也可说我不理江湖事。

我还是喜欢这样的我。嘻嘻……

现在什么是非都完全不想理。

想的只是……珍惜现在，这四个字。

今早就和我的好姐妹，古去跑步，喝茶，做功课……

开心开心~

之后还去代班教画画去了。

好在小朋友都不错，害我白担心了。

哈哈！！

最近还发现一件事……

我呀……最喜欢田园风了！

多么的优雅、和平呀！

所以，出国升学的地点也选了纽西兰。

贪那里够静，也有优美的环境……

一级棒！！哈哈~

好啦好啦……就哈拉到此……嘻嘻……

Yoohoo~

(This photo was found on the web.. nice and have vintage feel. I like the tone too...)

Haha.. suddenly feel that i really had been some time didn't update my post... I'm so sorry... Rushing final now and this week is the last preparation for the coming presentation week! Argh~!! So nervous... Haha!! But i got the confidence to finish it by this week. *hope so x__x

Well... After Saturday's birthday celebration for my grandma, i start feeling the itchiness in my throat... And then, of course, start coughing... Oh no~ Wow... It's a big sign of being sick!! Ya, it's true and i was suffering with coughing and sneezing these two days. Luckily i'm alright now... Phew~! Thanks my mom for forcing me to eat those vitamins. Haha!!

Another thing i think i would like to share will be a new friend. She's my senior---Ah Koo! Haha!! She's definitely a funny, straight foward and a person that i may take her as my learning target. Actually we met last year and was introduced by our friend, Ah Ming. I still can remember where we met the very 1st time. *at my college's next door printing shop... Till the masquarade dating, we had never chat a word but a grin every time we met. Haha!! Maybe i should thanks to the mass comm seniors for having the event and give me a chance. Whatever~ It's not the point... The point is, she stay quite near to my house! Haha!!Can be kepong kaki~! Haha!!! Yeepee~ New friend~ Haha!!!

Oh ya! Oh ya!! My 1st book design had been proved!!! Yeepee~!!Just left the front cover of the book!! Yoohooo~!! Haha... But the other nightmare is... My 2nd book design haven't start at all!! Guess what? Next Saturday will be my presentation day! Argh~!! *trying to consult myself that i can finish it... >___<

Anyway, i think this two weeks will be very very busy and yet doesn't have extra time to up-date my blog... No worries, time goes fast... Haha!!

What is in Mika's thought??

Oh yeah! My new hair cut. Haha!! Nice?

I just feel ok. Haha!!

Anyway, new look, new way of life. Haha!!

Create by Mika...

Actually I had lots of things to say, just lazy to up date my blog.

Haha!! So sorry...

Suddenly feel like want to compose in mandarin, sorry if any of the visitor couldn't understand.

这假期里，领悟了一些东西。真的只需做好自己的本分就行了。别人是怎么样，能你不得就算了，顾不了那么多。我发现啊，今年发生了许多事。有大事、有小事……我也成长了不少。我常常会在逆境里想尽办法逃脱，现在也就遇到了某些问题，想逃……但是，我慎重的想了想，我没必要逃，面对吧！我是这样决定的。我的学业是我的事业，哪能拖延？！想说，之前没努力，现在只好加把劲。时间是还有的，没必要逼自己到尽头。紧张了~哈哈！每到这个时候，谁不会？哈哈！

现在面对的是非太多，不太想理，更不想说。人呀，真的得纪律点，收收口，积点口福吧！冲动，火爆，是我的个性，没能改，只可收敛点。这就是我的纪律，我给自己定下的纪律。有时还是会自私的说，为什么我得这么做啊？很假也！哈哈……纯粹是我个人孩子气的想法。

社交是重要，但对我来说是很表面的东西，很双面。诶？不能说那些人双面，只能说他们是“太会做人了”。这是从我一位朋友那学来的。哈哈！我呀，是不会那样的社交啦，不太能忍受。所以啊，我很喜欢和说话开门见山的人交朋友，不用隐瞒，不用假假。被太直的话刺伤是难免不了的啦，但好比那些假假的，杀伤力会更深吧……总而言之，我有我的原则，我有我的固执……

Troublesome Matter

Either "like" or "love", it's really a troublesome matter.
No matter i'm in love or not, it will really affect my daily life.
Always thinking about the person, always waiting him to nudge me in my MSN.
Always hoping something special will happen.
NO!! Dreaming!!
Troublesome... Really troublesome...
I rather i'm not in the situation all the time.
So that i can enjoy my single live freely.
Not thinking of anyone, mind's freedom!!!
I hate all the like and love!!
I can be greedy, I can be selfish.
That's me, freedom always number one for me.
A lot of questions in my mind.
I want to leave my own life.
No mask on me, no acting... I hate all this...
Why can't just be like kids?
Angry and sad for 5 minutes and happy for the whole day??
Sometime I think, why is my ambition being a Graphic Designer, not a kid?
Crazy thinking I have. But i like all this...
Who can answer my question?
Someone did answer me all this patiently.
Some of it wasn't my answer. Never mind.
I know, words should go through big brains before coming out from my mouth.
I know... but why i should do this?
So that people around me won't get hurt or to protect myself of being boycott?
I'm kind off confuse with this.
Mess... Mess...
Loving someone is a sweet thing, maybe...
But in love with someone who doesn't love you... Like hell...
Really like hell.
That's why say, single life is the best.
Can play freely! Mind freedom!!! Haha!!!

My day~

I went GK to meet my client at bout 1pm, i used to call him "BOSS". Haha!! I was so nervous... While waiting for June and Iko, i really don't know what should i do, i just walking around, pretending i'm thinking what to do with the interior design. Hehe... ><>

Then, we decided to go for movie at 8.30pm... But... you know girls... slow... and... late... we reached there at 8.25pm, if i'm not mistaken. No choice, i'm so desperate to watch it, chose the later show at 10.40pm. I called my mom to inform, and... i get scolded... She even want me to go back immediately and throw away the ticket... Of course, i didn't do so. Bad girl...

We then went to TIMES bookstore. I just grab a wedding magazine, thought just a glance, but actually i finished the whole magazine... I really like those gowns!!! While i was reading it, i found the reason why i want to keep fit and slim. Haha!! so excited about that! Haha!! When i can pick up those beautiful gown? One day... in the future... >___<>

After enjoying myself with the wedding gowns... Dinner time~ just had a bowl of soup. KEEP FIT~!!! Haha... Of course, then, we watched my very 1st time 3D movie, G-FORCE!!! Haha... During the movie, a lot of sound effect from me. "Wu~Wa~..." Haha!! June was shocked when i told her that was my 1st time. Haha... actually when i was... very very young, even i forget when was it... I had once at Genting's theme park... Anyway... They are so CUTE!!! Haha...

Who knows my feeling?

These days like doing nothing.

The whole day only facebook-ing and day dreaming... hahaha!!

Kind off waste..

Start from tomorrow, i will make all these back to normal.

Concentrate on my assignments..

I am far too slow compare with others. This is really not good... >___<

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-About what i felt on myself-

Hrm... Counting... i had been single for nearly 1 n a half year.

Actually, i'm quite enjoy with this life.

No sms-ing too much, less phone calls, no worries, more concentration...

Sometimes will bored of it, i mean being single, the loneliness is killing me.

Like a voice in my heart wanting me myself to get one asap.

I confess that i have feel on someone, but just feel, maybe not the Mr. Right yet.

Myself couldn't make sure this is a right feeling or not.

I just know the person not more than 1 week.

Maybe just a pass over feeling.

I will overcome this. This is normal for a single lady. Haha!!

I'm talking crap here. Haha! Just want to find somewhere to express this.

Friends happy, I'll happy.

That's my life, leaving without friend? Just kill me!

I swear i won't disturb other's relationship, i swear i won't.

I will bless them to go forever, it will be the fate.

What am i fearing of? I fear that i will be single till the end of my life.

I don't want to be!!! Haha... Crazy thoughts right? That's me... Haha!!

I go to calm down... Hehe...

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(a pic we took during our form 5 prom night 07)

To my dear friend, vian...

Although this few years, we seldom meet up and keep in touch, but for what is true, you are always my idol, my best friend forever, more than anyone else.

At UK got to take really good care, i will wait you back to have korean food together. Haha!!

You really got to take care of yourself.

Remember, don't stress yourself to much... Miss ya... ^___^

哈密瓜~Honeydew~

Just finish taking bath after came back from R2 cafe with the 笑team.

A simple little thing can cause us laugh like crazy more than an hour.

Haha!! That's why, we are "siao" team as well. Haha...

At first was bout kotex, then mixed kotex with the smell of honeydew, then stories go on...

Laugh till tears burst out, stomachache, couldn't finish my DoubleCheese Burger in peace. Haha!!

Anyway, feel so happy with these people, i mean, ya, my friends forever...

Had some happy time, a little of arguement, a little of craziness, that's enough for my college life.

Slowly pick up with the assignments already, if not i'm going be dead ducks again.

I know what result i want, I know this is not enough, I'm now taking action to make those target happening. Yeah~ Sot already...

Oh ya, 笑team at Genting on Tuesday and back on Wednesday to attend class. "Great achievement", haha... During this Final Assign rushing peak time. Haha!! Great trip, my first time with friends to Genting... Hehe... So happy~

Recent life

(Siao Siao Gang went Emptiness at Anexe Gallery on 29th August)

Feel some kind of lonely, but nevermind, it's not the time now.

Something more important is waiting to be done. Ya, My assignment!!! Argh! +____+

What's real for now is, i feel more free with this gang of people.

No gossip, just enjoy being theirself, enjoy the moment.

I hate gossip. Making trouble out of that.

Stay far away from that is the step i took to avoid troubles.

I like elise blog that post:-

感激诉责你的人；因为他助长了你的定慧~

感激绊倒你的人；因为他增强了你的能力~

感激遗弃你的人；因为他教导了你应自力~

感激鞭打你的人；因为他消除了你的业障~

感激欺骗你的人；因为他增进了你的见识~

感激伤害你的人；因为他磨练了你的心志~

感激所有使你坚定成就的人~

Thanks to my friends...

I do learn things from you guys.

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Hehe... start with my keep fit plan form now on.

Anti-rice and mee~!!

Join vege and fruits~!

Haha!!

Jogging every morning~!!!

Hate let people say i fat already. +____+

Wish to learn yoga or dance. Who willing to go with me?? Hehe

Carzy days passed by just like that

(The crazy gang fooling around at 064's exhibition--Rainovation)

Hehe... I had been very long never update my blog. Many reasons i can give, but then, still back to the word " lazy"! haha... Anyway, had a joyful time with my gang but a blue time with my mom. Every time she called me, I just couldn't' t stop myself quarrelling with her. How bout now? Settle, with the move i made, move back to Kepong and quit the sldn program. She was worrying that i will hate her for making me to have those decision, i told her, no. I just don't want our relationship getting worse. Hehe... Now, back to a concentrate life again. Phew...

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That day went Jun's house, her mom is so damn funny. She couldn't remember my name, she just gave me a new nickname "xiao qian". Haha!! Instead of telling her my real name, i just accept this nickname as, it wasn't sound bad. Haha!! From that day on, Jun always play around with this name, although I couldn't accept in the beginning.

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I really gona pick up quick in my studies from now on. I had left behind of the whole class and friends around me already. No more lazy as the reason to run away. Face it is what i told myself. GOGOGO!!!

Lazy me

Haha... I'm so damn lazy to up date my blog. Anyway, lots of thing had happened during this week. It's a challenging week for my friendship, family and assignment. I just feel that i'm getting lazy. Oh no!!! Can't lazy anymore!! Dateline is getting closer, argh!! Wake up man~!! Oh no, it's girl. Haha...

I feel like want to cut my hair... What do you guys think about it?? Haha... Maybe next year... My mom rejected my suggestion. Haha!

Feel more relax now as my family here has been settle and friends there as well. What had happened, it will be a once-upon-a-time-story in my life. Nah~ forget 'bout that. Haha...

Aiyaya... I'm getting fat! Keep fit keep fit!!

A whole week is going to start, go go go!! Haha.. Laugh more!

Chain...

"... I hate this part right here..." Pussy cat dolls' song, "I hate this part". Ya, I do hate quarelling, I do hate being fake, I do hate people telling me what to do... But what can I do to avoid all these? THis afternoon had a chat, no, actually a quarel with my parents.

They just so worry that I will get cheated by people, or even friends. They just so worry that I will missed the result of my studies... They were so worry about me. I hate to hear what they repeat and repeat...

My dad said he was worried what I'm doin out there, and bla bla bla... I also forget what he said, and just remember what I shouted at him... I said:"Even if I stay at home, you will always be out there for meetings or activity, how many time I can be with you?! It's the same thing I stay outside, no different!" I know that hurt him much, but I just don't know how to appologize for that... I'm hurt too, that's why I cried...

I know you guys worry about me, I know... I just want to be free with what I want, I just want to make my own decision... That may wrong, but that's is what I need now... I'm 19 this year, not a kid anymore. I have my thought... I know what I'm doing... Why don't just let go the chain and set me free?

I found out that I am such a greedy and selfish girl. What can I do? I just remember the words from a friend, "just be yourslef". But now, I lost myself with the chain on me...

Friendship is such an important thing to me. I just couldn't stand with people that had betrayed my trust on her. I just couldn't be an good actress for all that. I am running from that, I am trying to hide away... I just couldn't believe all this had happened... Double faces... Hate that so much... Sometimes really feel that I should be alone, I should boycott myself from the crowd. Will this effective? Maybe I don't think so, that's why I have a new gang now. I want to start over again. I can't measure how people will like me or hate me, I just can be myself, at least I know someone did like me...